MBA: Rejection Post #1
So, my last post was about exams. And I conveniently forgot that along with exams comes another fearful thing, infact something which is even more deadly than the actual exam. RESULTS.
And so, after working hard for 6 months and trying to balance a horribly unsatisfying job and a lonely life devoid of any social interactions in a suburb of Bangalore thinking that it would do me a lot of good in avoiding distractions and sacrificing my social life in order to do better in these MBA entrance tests, I had a lot of expectations from myself. But unfortunately some things aren’t meant to be. I checked my XAT result today and I scored a dismal 96 percentile. What makes it worse is my score in the Verbal Ability section(unmentionable, I think). And what makes it worsest(With such a bad VA performance, I NEED to use wrong grammar so that I can justify the score!) is that I haven’t applied to any other MBA college using my XLRI score. So even if you were thinking “OK, 96 percentile isn’t that bad a score!”, I can’t do much with it now.After two years of giving MBA Entrance exams and scoring 96-97-98 percentiles and just-missing the elite colleges, I should’ve just learnt not to be so choosy this time around. Stupid me.
Somehow I was really confident about this exam and everyone around kept assuring me that I would make it to XLRI(it was my dream college; and so it shall remain). And this result shatters me. I’ve been in a state of nervous breakdown for the past 3 hours(a lonely life devoid of any social interactions in a suburb of Bangalore doesn’t really help in such times). I have no idea what to do now(I’d initially planned to put in my resignation letter as soon as the XAT results came out. Ah, overconfidence!). I need advice; but I don’t know who to ask and what. Afterall they say, one is the master of one’s own fate. If only…
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:14 pm
Hey,
Don’t worry u’ll be alrite. This was the first one.. there are a lot of results to come. and I assure u that u will make into some real big college this year only.
Cheer up…
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:46 pm
I got 94 :( .. Now what do you have to say about that?Cheer up,Maybe you are destined to get into IIMs?
January 22nd, 2010 at 12:48 pm
Its hard to supress the thought of dream b-school. But again, scoring 96p requires gr8 mix of skill and you’ve got that… So, charge up.
Wish you all luck :)
January 22nd, 2010 at 1:15 pm
@eminem: Somehow the ‘I assure u that u will make into some real big college this year only’ part of your comment brought a smile to my face. If I don’t get into a good college, now I know who to catch :P
@Mayank Chandna: 94 is a good score if you’ve applied to other colleges under XAT. I made a big mistake by not doing so. And I kinda feel I’ve messed up CAT too, so no hopes for IIMs :(
@OnTheGo: I might have skill, but I have ZERO luck. But since you’ve wished me ‘all luck’, I hope that’ll change :)
January 22nd, 2010 at 1:44 pm
Dont worry, in this big cyber world u will catch Dagny instead of me :P
January 22nd, 2010 at 2:25 pm
sona ,even if u get something around 94-95 percentile in CAT, with work ex in your hands you never know you can get a call from iim-b … be optimistic … dont lose hope . Good luck :)
January 22nd, 2010 at 3:45 pm
hmm…can sure empathise dear.I was working in a BPO and quit my job..did not get through..if i had some engineering degree,believe you me i would never compromise and pursue my goal relentlessly…..may be u did not work hard enough..no offences…whoever works the hardest ,crown it!
So i guess,work even harder..though this piece of advice comes from someone who scored a miserable 88% ;-)
cheer up gal!
January 22nd, 2010 at 7:20 pm
I really appreciate your spirit and determination to not to compromise with your dream B school…what if you were not able to make this time ??…u have got excellent score…2 years of preparation shows that u can persevere amidst an unsatisfying job…hats off to you for that…the only advice 4 u will be the way u have done so far, just continue with ur preparation for one more time…you will certainly make this time :) … but before you start all over again i will say take a small break… go for an outing with friends or out of city whatever , which will refresh and renergize you again…and please dont cut off from social life….staying lonely will harm you more then it would help you..
personal experience se bol raha hun..
January 22nd, 2010 at 8:36 pm
i did not make it too and so i was hoping that some one would write my feelings here in TG…Thanks and yes i know it sucks…it sucks big time but what can we do
January 22nd, 2010 at 10:02 pm
96…gal u got that potential…but i understand it all feels useless when u have nothing in hand…Wishing u all the best for the rest of the season :)
And if i end up with a suicide it ill be u..u called 96 dismal!!I managed 61!
January 22nd, 2010 at 10:12 pm
Hey lass, i understand the situation which you are going through. But just remember that you are not alone in this boat, this year also 96% of the XAT test takers couldn’t make it whose XLRI was a dream. I am also one of those. But who knows hap has something else for you in stock. :)
Enjoy mam…MBA prep is not only about clearing exams. You should also get some potential to face temporary failures.
Stay Happy n Enjoy each day.
January 22nd, 2010 at 10:45 pm
@Sidhant Bansal: I’m trying to keep my hopes up. Lets see aage kya hota hai :)
@Arun Patial: I’ve never been the hard working types, but this time I really gave it my best shot. In retrospect I guess I could’ve worked harder(theoretically :) ). By the way, what do you do now?
@Ravindra Rajput: You’re the first person to appreciate the fact that I’ve applied very selectively to schools :) Thanks! And yeah, taking a small break and going for an outing is a really really good idea…
@Dhiraj Jain: Keep up the hope, my friend! I know I’m not exactly the right person to say this, but a good night’s sleep made me feel a li’l better than what I was feeling at the time of writing this post.
@Lo”v”er boy: Wish you best of luck too. I’m sure there’ll be something better in store for all of us!
@Gurpreet Phull: I’ve been courting failure for the past 2 years now. Hope there is indeed something else for me in stock. Searching for the elusive light at the end of the tunnel…
@All: Thanks for commenting. You have no idea how much better this makes me feel :)
January 22nd, 2010 at 11:33 pm
lover boy…yaar mera kya hoga…i m also gonna do sth like u had mentioned…
my depression is worse than world’s greatest depression…
sona…plzz no derogatory comments on ur score, which make others, who hv not scored even dat much, feel like hell..
anyways best o luk 2 all of u 4 d other xams…
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January 23rd, 2010 at 12:10 am
@Neeraj, Lo”v”er boy: No exam is that important that you feel it is greater than life. In the end, scores are a matter of perception; how much you expect and how much you ultimately get. Please don’t read too much into my score(my intention was really not to make anyone feel worse about their score :( ), what you should see here is that we are both disappointed and upset. And we have a good forum here where we can discuss our worries, seek encouragement from fellow test-takers, and feel better!
All the best to you too…
January 23rd, 2010 at 12:49 am
@ sona: Well ! i am writing all the management entrances at the moment. and will do so till all of these exams are over..but i am in a big dilemma .I am almost certain to get a seat in SIMS pune.It is a good B school, however ,like you, I too am a big brand person..I wish they don’t select me and then i will rise like a phoenix…i am so pumped up …:)
January 23rd, 2010 at 6:16 am
@Sona…Koi depressiion vepression nai yaar…I am a besharm sort of a praani…i was just trying make u feel better ki u were saying ki 96 is a dismal score and here i am who has got a score in decimals ;) and trying to console u…
Was just kidding…Exams results i dont give a damn to when i have given my best efforts :D
January 23rd, 2010 at 11:18 am
hey just cheer up dear friend. :)
I m sailing in the same boat as u but keeping my fingers crossed for the CAT results.. u gonna rock!
January 25th, 2010 at 9:43 am
Heyy, relax! 96 percentile is like you’re better than 96 percent of those who wrote the exam right?? man, that’s like wow!!
Keep us informed on what’s happening!